Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Not That I'm Counting . . .

 . . .  but we're in one-week mode. That is, assuming this amnio comes back positive. Assuming this little guy makes it that far. I am on the schedule for next Tuesday. I have the amnio on Monday. Let's hang in there til then, shall we? Definitely, if I'm following this marathon metaphor through, at mile 25.

I can barely breathe, barely exhale, barely believe it. Actually, I won't believe it until we get there. But oh my gods.

Thankfully our lives are a complete whirlwind until then. I am in full-on Christmas shopping mode. We are having our ENTIRE HEATING SYSTEM overhauled---the 95-year-old boiler is gone, no hot water for 24 hours starting tomorrow, three more days, we hope, of being exiled from home during the day.  I have a fun date scheduled for tomorrow night with some of my girlfriends. A dr appt on Thursday. Library books due. Things to distract me.

Trying to stay positive, to keep the bile down while I sleep, and to not panic.  Gotta get more books from the library . . . need some more distractions.

10 comments:

  1. My dear Mary Beth - so very much thinking of you. Biggest ((hugs)) for you and sending love.

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  2. Oh, this was so me this time last year!! I was just frozen. I had no idea what to do or what to feel. I was every emotion you could ever think of, all rolled in to one big anxious ball!
    Keep trudging forwards Mary Beth. With all those distractions, he really will be here before you know it.
    xo

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  3. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  4. Of course it is colder this week than it's been since last winter. Thinking of you and the little guy, positive thoughts, hugs and prayers to you.

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  5. Thinking of you! All of your distractions sound great! :)

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  6. Go! Go! Go! Thinking of you and C and E and the Cos every single day!

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  7. the sun is shining bright for you and your family.

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  8. Oh, these last days are so difficult. Hang in there. You will make it through. Keep as busy as possible. Thinking of you and looking forward to hearing some good news from you in a week's time!

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  9. I will just keep thinking of you until we get some news. Thinking of you all everyday. We are all counting down with you and hanging in there with you. I'm guessing the wait is all but unbearable now-try to hang in there with your sanity. Sending lots of strength and good vibes your way (p.s. did you see the weather forecast for Tuesday? sunny and 60, let's hope it's a very auspicious day! Knock wood, etc...) Right there with you in spirit!

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  10. Mary Beth, Tara(Rapp)Marallo gave me your name and the info. about your blog. We just lost our 3 week old girl a week ago after a seemingly completely healthy pregnancy. So much about what you have written in your blog speaks so deeply to me and is very reflective of a lot of what I'm thinking and feeling. We also have a healthy little boy who would have made a wondeful "big" brother. I am praying that all goes well with you over this next week and what a joy it must be to be anticipating a new little babe after such a difficult journey. It gives me hope that we may have that joyful anticipation again someday. Sooo many good wishes for you, your new babe, and for a safe delivery!

    Darci

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