Wednesday, November 9, 2011

One Year

Happy Birthday to our baby boy. 366 days ago I still believed the gaping hole in my heart could never be repaired. Even as I listened to his heartbeat all night, the night before being induced. Even after a good-looking amniocentesis. I still couldn't believe he'd actually get here.

But he did.

One year ago today our youngest baby was born. Our second boy, our third child.  My sweet little soul, who loves his mama, who smiles whenever he sees a camera, who dances whenever he hears a tune or a beat. Not technically a miracle baby, he was my miracle. He helped repair a heart that seemed smashed wide open forever--it was a miracle, to me, that I could love someone so fearlessly and wholly again.

I am swamped right now by life. We lived through getting a new roof, are fighting a double ear infection (E), are coming down from Halloween and its spooky accoutrements. We're trying our darndest to get the house is reasonable order before the big birthday party this weekend. Last week was C's 40th bday and all its grand celebrations. E has decided that sleeping, and going to bed, and staying in bed, id for the birds and has taken to shrieking and wailing whenever any of those activities are suggested.

Mama is tired. And VERY behind on the projects I want to tackle, namely NaNoWriMo and watching everyone's video blogs. Le grand sigh.

But I can't NOT share some pics of my beautiful birthday boy. The love of my life. My happy dude.


  1. What smiles! Makes me smile too.
    Happy day to both of you!

  2. Damn, mama. That is one cute kid. What a little heartbreaker. Or in this case, a heart-mender :)
    A whole year? I just can't believe it.
    Happy birthday, happy dude.

  3. What a little ray of sunshine :o)
    A miracle indeed and we'd call him a Rainbow baby here in the UK.

    "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of colour, energy and hope''.

  4. Thank you for sharing this post. So beautiful. Gives me a lot of hope.
    - Kari

  5. I am so glad he fills your heart with so much love. Right there along with the love you have for E and Calla. I can only imagine the mending that such a precious little guy is capable of. Who knew we could give birth to super H
    Heros. He has no idea the power of his love or smiles and laugh. Well than again maybe he does. those little ones are sneaky little devils and wield there power for all sorts of stuff. Happy birthday to you both. I hope the next year of his life is twice as beautiful and wondrous as the first. Sending my love...

  6. He is so precious. Seriously adorable baby you've got there. Happy birthday little dude!

  7. Beautiful boy is right!! He shines. Happy birthday to your little sweetheart!!

  8. An extremely belated 'happy birthday' to your baby boy. He is just beautiful!