tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7669232949254960562.post1961297195732585326..comments2023-04-17T07:56:57.717-04:00Comments on Naptime Confessional: File Under 'Crazy'Mary Bethhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12212750107782259674noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7669232949254960562.post-61245562508892144992010-07-08T19:48:28.152-04:002010-07-08T19:48:28.152-04:00Oh I get this. I really do. I felt like each new b...Oh I get this. I really do. I felt like each new baby born alive meant mine was less likely to make it. I also felt I had a 50/50 chance that the baby would live or die, even though I knew the odds were far more favourable than that. I feel sick to the stomach just thinking about my ultrasounds with Angus, and I had them once every four weeks from 20 weeks. Even though they said he was fine at 20 weeks, I still kept waiting for something to show up. I think I annoyed the hell out of the ultrasound technicians "is that ok, is that normal, is that good, what does that mean" yada yada yada. <br />As for FB, ugh. I too deleted my profile after Hope died. Couldn't bear it. I have just been back on for the last six months or so, and it still makes me feel a bit ill. It is all so damn fake.<br />Thinking of you before the big scan.<br />xoHope's Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04984543289642681339noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7669232949254960562.post-26950936856580281162010-07-08T17:05:37.246-04:002010-07-08T17:05:37.246-04:00Oh, honey. This must be so hard. I'm not even ...Oh, honey. This must be so hard. I'm not even pregnant again yet and I can't think about the anatomy scan without dry heaves. You're not crazy - I can't handle facebook at all. I erased my profile months ago. I try not to find out if someone around me is pregnant. I am convinced that if someone close to me gets pregnant that I won't, because they got the baby meant for me. So I know crazy. Deep breaths. I'll keep holding your hand over the ether while you wait.biojenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01502436465193662273noreply@blogger.com